绘◎秋林夕

Hey!

I know we haven't seen each other and we haven't talked to each other in while.

But I want you to know that I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately.

…And…

I want you to know that I miss you.

Not I regret①what happened

嘿！

我知道我们已经有一阵子没有见面，甚至彼此都没有说话了。

但我想让你知道，最近我一直在思考。

① regret英 [rɪ'gret] 美 [rɪ'ɡrɛt]

vt. 后悔；惋惜；哀悼vi. 感到后悔；感到抱歉

② entire 英 [ɪn'taɪə; en-] 美 [ɪn'taɪɚ]

adj. 全部的，整个的；全体的or I want to see you again.

Just I miss you.

That sometimes I go entire②days without thinking about you.

Most of the time, I let myself forget.

But then I find something, a photo, a gift, the stupid love letters we used to give each other.

And the full weight of what’s been lost crashes down on me.

Part of me wants to see you again, to hold you again, to kiss you again.

But all those feelings become empty thoughts.

But this isn't regret.

We had reasons for ending it.

We didn’t need any reasons to fall in love.

We just did.

The reasons came at the end.

And everything since then has been about reasons.

And that's good.

Means that one day I’ll find someone who I won’t have to say goodbye to.

But, a part of me just misses loving someone.

And having them love you back.

That’s all.

I guess what I'm saying is

I hope things are good with you.

I hope everything is great.

I hope you found a love.

That’s all the things ours couldn't be.

But… Just a small part of me hopes that you still remember what it was like before all the reasons.

And that you miss me too.

……还有……

我想让你知道，我很想念你。

不是因为我后悔已经发生的事，也不是说我还想再见到你。

只是因为，我想你了。

有时候我甚至一整天都不会想起你。

大多数时候，我劝自己忘记。

可是之后我又睹物思人。一张照片、一件礼物，还有我们曾经互相写给对方的傻傻的情书。

一想到我失去了一切，就被压得喘不过气来。

有时候我想再见到你，再抱你一下，再亲你一次。

但最终我的脑袋空空如也。

但这并不代表后悔。

我们的分手不是毫无理由的。

最开始我们的相爱不需要理由。

爱了就爱了。

后来我们有了很多理由。

而且从那以后，任何事都变成了理由。

不过那也挺好。

也许总有一天我们都会找到一个从不说分开的人。

只是有一部分的我，依旧会怀念那种全心全意爱一个人的感觉。

而且那个人也一样爱着你。

就是如此。

我猜我只是想说

希望你一切顺利。

希望你一切安好。

希望你找到真爱。

一个不会重蹈我们覆辙的人。

但是，还有一小部分的我希望，你依然会记得曾经的我们。

而且，你也想念我。