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李银河说：“小波真是幸运，斯人已去，却留下这些文字，令我们哭，令我们笑，令我们沉思，令我们反省。他的文学成就还是让文学史家去评论吧，我看重的只是他给我带来的当下的快乐。”

⒈ I have now got accustomed①to something, every other two or three days, I would tell you what I wouldn't want to impart②to anyone else. Of course I do have something more yet to tell you, but as long as I have brought them to you, I would be happy to walk away, free from all that is on my mind.

⒉I am now a good man with conscience. You are my conscience.

⒊ Deep down there are times that I could be cynical③and arrogant④toward people. But there's a core of my soul,delicate⑤as a lamb, fears all the darkness of the world. The only solace⑥I can find is through a love which is purely unconditional⑦. To me, you are part of the core.

⒋I am in love with you, since the moment I caught sight of you. My love to you casts aside⑧all my self-seeking thoughts.

⒌I will cry if you are into someone else, even so I will still have a crush on you.

⒍So if you please, be in love, with me.

⒎You don't really have to love me, but I love you. It's destined.

⒈我现在已经养成了一种习惯，就是每二三天要找你说几句不想对别人说的话。当然还有更多的话没有说出口来，但是只要我把它带到了你面前，我走开的时候自己就满意了，这些念头就不会再折磨我了。

⒉我现在不坏了，我有了良心。我的良心就是你。

⒊我的灵魂里有很多地方玩世不恭，对人傲慢无礼，但是它有一个核心，这个核心害怕黑暗，柔弱得像绵羊一样。只有顶平等的友爱才能使他得到安慰。你对我是属于这个核心的。

⒋我是爱你的，看见就爱上了。我爱你爱到不自私的地步。

⒌你要是喜欢别人我会哭，但是还是喜欢你。

⒍假如你愿意，你就恋爱吧，爱我。

⒎不一定要你爱我，但是我爱你，这是我的命运。

① accustomed 英 [ə'kʌstəmd] 美 [ə'kʌstəmd]

adj. 习惯的；通常的；独有的v. 使习惯于（accustom的过去分词）②impart英 [ɪm'pɑːt] 美 [ɪm'pɑrt] vt. 给予（尤指抽象事物），传授；告知，透露

③ cynical英 ['sɪnɪk(ə)l] 美 ['sɪnɪkl] adj. 愤世嫉俗的；冷嘲的④ arrogant英 ['ærəg(ə)nt] 美 ['ærəɡənt] adj. 自大的，傲慢的⑤ delicate 英 ['delɪkət] 美 [ˈdɛlɪkɪt]

adj. 微妙的；精美的，雅致的；柔和的；易碎的；纤弱的；清淡可口的

⑥solace英 ['sɒlɪs] n. 安慰；慰藉；安慰之物vt. 安慰；抚慰；使快乐

⑦ unconditional英 [ʌnkən'dɪʃ(ə)n(ə)l] 美 [,ʌnkən'dɪʃənl]adj. 无条件的；绝对的；无限制的

⑧cast aside抛弃；废除