妈妈从没告诉你的那些事
2017-06-05祝莉丽
祝莉丽
1. You made her cry ... a lot. She cried when she found out she was pregnant. She cried as she gave birth to you. She cried when she first held you. She cried with happiness. She cried with fear. She cried with worry. She cried because she feels so deeply for you. She felt your pain and your happiness and she shared it with you, whether you realized it or not.
2. She wanted that last piece of pie. But when she saw you look at it with those big eyes and lick your mouth with that tiny tongue, she couldn't eat it. She knew it would make her much happier to see your little tummy be filled than hers.
3. She was always afraid. From the moment you were conceived1), she did all in her power to protect you. She became your mama bear2). She was that lady who wanted to say no when the little girl next door asked to hold you, and who cringed3)when she did, because in her mind no one could keep you as safe as she herself could. Her heart skipped two beats with your first steps. She stayed up late to make sure you got home safe, and woke up early to see you off to school. With every stubbed4) toe and little stumble5), she was close by; she was ready to snatch6) you up with every bad dream or late night fever. She was there to make sure you were OK.
4. She knows she's not perfect. She is her own worst critic. She knows all her flaws and sometimes hates herself for them. She is hardest on herself when it comes to you, though. She wanted to be the perfect mom, to do nothing wrong—but because she is human, she made mistakes. She is probably still trying to forgive herself for them. She wishes with her whole heart that she could go back in time and do things differently, but she can't, so be kind to her, and know she did the best she knew how to do.
5. She watched you as you slept. There were nights when she was up 'til 3:00 a.m. praying that you would finally fall asleep. She could hardly keep her eyes open as she sang to you, and she would beg you to "please, please fall asleep." Then, when you finally fell asleep, she would lay you down and all her tiredness would disappear for a short second as she sat by your bedside looking down at your perfect cherub7) face, experiencing more love than she knew was possible, despite her worn-out arms and aching eyes.
6. She carried you a lot longer than nine months. You needed her to. So she did. She would learn to hold you while she cleaned; she would learn to hold you while she ate; she would even hold you while she slept, because it was the only way she could sometimes. Her arms would get tired, her back would hurt, but she held you still because you wanted to be close to her. She snuggled8 you, loved you, kissed you and played with you. You felt safe in her arms; you were happy in her arms; you knew you were loved in her arms, so she held you, as often and as long as you needed.
7. It broke her heart every time you cried. There was no sound as sad as your cries, or sight as horrible as the tears streaming down your perfect face. She did all in her power to stop you from crying, and when she couldn't stop your tears, her heart would shatter9) into a million little pieces.
8. She put you first. She went without food, without showers and without sleep. She always put your needs before her own. She would spend all day meeting your needs, and by the end of the day, she would have no energy left for herself. But the next day, she would wake up and do it all over again, because you meant that much to her.
9. She would do it all again. Being a mom is one of the hardest jobs anyone can do, and it will take you to your very limits sometimes. You cry, you hurt, you try, you fail, you work and you learn. But, you also experience more joy that you thought was possible and feel more love than your heart can contain. Despite all the pain, grief, late nights and early mornings you put your mom through, she would do it all again for you because you are worth it to her. So, next time you see her, tell your mom thank you; let her know that you love her. She can never hear it too many times.
你也许一直都知道,妈妈很爱你。可你却不记得,你小的时候她怎样爱你。因为关于你小时候那些满含母爱的小小细节,妈妈从未告诉过你。
1. 你没少让她哭过。发现怀孕的时候,她哭了。把你生出来的时候,她哭了。第一次把你抱在怀里的时候,她哭了。她因为幸福而哭泣。她因为担惊受怕而哭泣。她因为提心吊胆而哭泣。她因为对你怀有深厚的感情而哭泣。她体会着你的痛苦和快乐,并对此感同身受,无论你是否能意识到这一点。
2. 她想吃最后那块馅饼。但是看到你用那双大眼睛望着馅饼、小舌头还舔着嘴唇的样子,她就不忍心吃了。她很清楚,看到你小肚子饱饱的样子比她自己吃饱更让她开心。
3. 她总是忧心忡忡。从怀上你的那一刻起,她就竭盡所能地去保护你。她变成了护崽的熊妈妈。她成了这样的女人:当隔壁的小女孩想抱你的时候,她会想拒绝;当那个小女孩抱起你的时候,她会感到惴惴不安。因为在她心里,没有人能像她自己一样保证你的安全。你刚开始学步时,她的心脏漏跳了几拍。她熬到深夜等你安全到家,早早醒来好送你出门上学。每当你不小心磕到脚趾或有些许磕绊,她总是在你身边。她总是时刻准备着把你从每一个可怕梦魇或午夜的高烧中解救出来。她就在那里守卫着,确保你一切都好。
4. 她知道自己并不完美。她对自己极度严苛。她知道自己所有的缺点,有时还会因此而讨厌自己。不过,当涉及你的时候,她对自己最为严苛。……
