绘/马豆子

The Inspirational Essay 励心小品

毕业季：难说再见

绘/马豆子

⒈We took a lot of photos on the day of graduation.Everyone was smiling. It looked like we would never be apart. Suddenly the first day of high school popped into my mind. The curious and excited faces remained fresh in my memory. Time flies！ Many things have been gone and I couldn't remember them except some beautiful fragments①fragment 英 ［'fræɡm（ə）nt］ 美 ［'fræɡmənt］ n. 碎片；片断或不完整部分 vt. 使成碎片 vi. 破碎或裂开.

⒉"You just review your books and I will look at you guys."

⒊Everyone was down the night before the NCEE. A bug flew into our classroom and stayed at our clock. Our clock didn't have a cover so we saw that bug struggling on the hand and holding back the clock two minutes late. Nobody said anything. We were all looking at the bug. our head-teacher joked that the bug was stalling②stall 英 ［stɔːl］ 美 ［stɔl］ n. 货摊；畜栏；托词 vi. 停止，停转；拖延 vt. 拖延；使停转；使陷于泥中time for us.

⒈毕业那天照了好多照片，每个人脸上都洋溢着笑容，好像我们永远不会分开。恍惚间想到了高一来学校报到时的场景，那一张张充满好奇而又兴奋的脸让人记忆犹新。时光飞逝，回想起来很多事都已烟消云散，但一些美好却永远留了下来。

⒉“你们再看看书，我再看看你们。”

⒊高考前一天晚上，大家情绪都不高。一只虫子飞进教室，停在我们教室的钟上了（那只钟没有钟面）。我们就看到那只虫在指针上不停地挣扎，直接把我们教室的钟拖慢了两分钟。当时大家都没说话，就看着那只虫。班主任开玩笑说这只虫在帮我们留住时间。

⒋After the NCEE， I helped her to move her stuff home that afternoon. We were talking while walking and when we got to her apartment， I said to her downstairs:"Can we stay like this forever？" She said yes.

⒌I thought I would cry my heart out. I thought I would tear up the exam papers crazily and the teachers would say goodbye in a touchy-feely tone... But nothing happened that afternoon. Everyone was quiet. We moved out our books and cleaned our classroom. It was nothing different from the scenes before the monthly exams. Everyone was doing the familiar things，and it seemed we would come back here to listen to our teachers' explanation③explanation 英 ［eksplə'neɪʃ（ə）n］ 美 ［，ɛksplə'neʃən］ n. 说明，解释；辩解of the questions.

⒍Our head-teacher showed us a video he had made when we didn't notice. We laughed at first， and then we cried.

⒎After the NCEE，we didn't roar， shout or tear up our books. We asked the teachers when they would give us classes to analyze the NCEE papers， and then we cried.

⒏I will never forget what our headteacher said on that day， "After the exam， this class probably will never be united like this again in my life."

⒐When you couldn't find the one you were looking for during the graduation photo shoots， you would realize the best days were over when you looked at the one you liked and found out he was looking at you too... I wish I could take another glance at you...

⒑ After dinner the day before the NCEE， I went for a walk with my dad. When we were walking past the barbeque④barbeque 英 ［'bɑːbəkjuː］ 美 ［'bɑbɪkju］ vt. 在烤架上烤 vi. 烤肉（等于barbecue） n. 烤肉野餐；炙烤用的铁架stall. I wanted to have some but dad refused to buy me any. He was worried I might get the runs. At midnight， dad walked into my room to check me. I was not really asleep then and dad stood beside my bed. fanning me for a long time. I think of this scene whenever I close my eyes.

⒋高考结束的那个下午，帮她搬东西回家，两个人就这样边走边聊。到她家楼下时，我说了句：“我们以后能不能一直这样？”她答应了。

⒌我以为我会抱头痛哭，会发疯般地撕卷子，老师会煽情地和我们道别——但是什么都没有发生，那天下午很平静，大家默默搬着书，收拾着教室，就像每次月考前的场景，大家都在做着做过无数次的事情，好像考完试还会回到这间教室听老师分析试卷。

⒍班主任在班里放了一段视频，是他平时在我们不知道的情况下拍的我们班的日常。一开始大家哄堂大笑，后来一个个眼眶都红了。

⒎高考完了，没有疯狂喊叫，没有激愤撕书。同学们笑着问老师什么时候评讲高考试卷，笑着笑着大家就哭了。

⒏永远也忘不了老班那句话：“考完试，这辈子，这个班，基本是聚不齐了。”

⒐拍毕业照那天，满操场寻觅也没对上那道目光，才知道，当你上课回头的时候，发现你喜欢的人也在看你的时刻到头了……多希望再看你一眼。

⒑高考前一天吃完晚饭，和老爸一起轧马路，走过大排档的时候我又忍不住想吃烧烤，老爸死活不让我吃，说万一吃坏肚子怎么办。半夜老爸进来看看我有没有蹬被子，其实我那个时候还没有睡着，老爸站在我床边拿着扇子为我扇了很久，这个场景至今一闭眼就能想起。

⒒本来说好谁都不哭，笑着迎接毕业。结果女生还是流了眼泪，男生也没出息地红了眼眶。该哭就哭，该闹就闹，该拥抱就拥抱。

⒓毕业典礼上，闺蜜悄悄跟我说：“以后不能跟你一起上学，一起回家了。”三年没哭过的我竟眼含热泪，拼命忍住不让它落下来。

⒔我再也不能在骑车的时候期待路上能碰到那个人了。

⒕我提着行李箱踏出了校门，才想起来饭卡里还有二十几块钱没有刷。毕业了，学校食堂都是那么亲切。

⒖毕业那天，学校通知我们高三学生到操场集合。隔壁班的一男同学抱了一大堆书，边撕边扔。然后大家一个接一个，开始扔书，一直持续了将近一个小时。书本满天飞的情景，现在都还记得。之后我们默默地下去集合，默默地回寝室搬书。最后，我跟朋友道别，去车站买票回家，回家后一个人在家放声大哭。

⒒We promised we wouldn't cry， and we would embrace the graduation with smiles on our faces. But girls cried and tears welled up in boys' eyes. Cry as you wish， joke as you want and hug as you expect.

⒓At the graduation ceremony， my best friend said to me:"We can't go to school and go home together anymore." I hadn' t cried for three years but I couldn't fight the tears at that moment.

⒔I could no longer expect to run into that guy while riding to school.

⒕After I walked out of the school with my luggage⑤luggage 英 ［'lʌɡɪdʒ］ 美 ［'lʌɡɪdʒ］ n. 行李；皮箱， I just realized that there was still more than 20 yuan in my meal card. After graduation， even the school canteen looked sweet for me.

⒖The graduates were askedto assemble⑥assemble 英 ［ə'semb（ə）l］ 美 ［ə'sɛmbl］ vt. 集合，聚集；装配；收集vi. 集合，聚集on the playground on the day of graduation. A boy from the next class walked to the playground while tearing up a pile of books. One after another， everyone else started to throw out their books and it lasted for nearly an hour. There were books everywhere after the big event and it's hard to forget it. Then， we started together on the playground silently. After that， we walked back to our dorms in silence. I gathered my stuff and went to the bus station to take the bus home after I said goodbye to my friends. When I got home， I cried out loudly.

⒗每个舍友走的时候我们都坚持要送到公交车站。送其中一个舍友时，大家说好了不哭，一路上也都嘻嘻哈哈地开着玩笑。正聊着，突然听到外面商店里放着《离别的车站》，然后话题就中断了，大家都把头别过去不看对方，忍着不哭出来。

⒘考试前觉得考完就是解放。然而，监考老师让放下笔那句话一说出来，我心头蓦然涌出一种失落感，一直的寄托没了，有点像没有方向的船在平静的海面上漂荡。

⒙毕业典礼时，同学问我，要毕业了，有什么感受吗？那个时候还觉得一切如常，没有不舍。但真正开始收拾行李时才明白高中就这么结束了，不会再有老师天天在耳旁念叨了，一起冲向食堂的小伙伴们也要各奔东西了……

⒚高考完，跟哥们儿从考场走回教室，之前都懒得去打扫卫生的同学都默默干了起来。本以为都会哭着离开，结果都大笑而去，每个人都卖力地打扫，就这样扫掉了我们三年青春。

⒛毕业那天，我以为我离开的是地狱，没想到是天堂。

⒗We insited on walking every roommmate to the bus station. We had promised each other that we wouldn't cry， and we joked and laughed all the way. But when We were walkmg past a store， we heard me song.The Station of Departure.We all stopped. We couldn't bear looking at each other and we tried so hard not to cry.

⒘I had thought that I would feel relieved after the NCEE. But when the invigilator⑦invigilator 英 ［ɪn'vɪdʒɪleɪtə］ 美［ɪn'vɪdʒɪleɪtə］ n. 监考人；监视器asked us to stop writing，I felt pretty lost like a boat drifting on the sea without any guidance.

⒙At the graduation ceremony， one of my classmates askea me how I felt. I felt fine and I wasn't reluctant to let it go. When I started packing， I suddenly realized that high school was really over. There would be no nagging⑧nagging 英 ［'næɡɪŋ］ 美 ［'næɡɪŋ］adj. 唠叨的；挑剔的；使人不得安宁的n. 唠叨；挑剔v. 唠叨（nag的ing形式）from any teacher. All of my friends would go for their own future.

⒚After the exam， I walked back to my classroom with my best buddy and saw even the laziest classmate cleaning our classroom. I thought we were going to say goodbye in tears. Instead， we bid farewell with laughter. We worked so hard to clean our classroom and cleaned our three years of youth away too.

⒛I thought I left the hell on my graduation day， but it turned out I left the paradise.

Graduation Season: It's Hard to Say Goodbye